Good news first, as I prefer to start things on a good note. Tonight was my bachelorette night and it was a GREAT night. I had very dear friends come and we sang karaoke, we danced with the BAR OWNERS on top of the bar, we got down to our bras and jeans, sang some more, danced, and just played ourselves silly whilst I wore fairy wings, a crown, and carried roses! I also got balloons where I made a wish and released them. Do they still come true if the balloons get stuck on a lamppost? I guess that means that eventually they'll come true. Either way, despite any pains I'll feel tomorrow I feel that everyone who showed up wished for my happiness and we all had a great time being silly and forgetting any sorrow which is always my main goal at a gathering. I don't handle sadness well, my own or others, and my only reaction is to find a way to get away from it, I'm the cold harsh reality friend, or the distraction friend. either or, that's how it works. I am very very bad at comfort.

Some sad news. Two friends, one really close to me and one I consider a good friend but don't get to talk to nearly enough, are having some difficulties not only with each other, but with their spouses as well and have to take a break of their friendship during this phase. Now, I'm not privy on all information, and I cannot tell them what to do, however I can hope they can objectively come to a decision...which in a bit of bitter criticism I dunno either can do. (I love you but I'm a jerk like that) both are intelligent people that rely on their emotions, while I have emotions but tend to go robotic in disputes and any emotional topic...it's my downfall. The only thing I can do is sit back, hope they both find happiness in their decisions and let them both know I will not take sides and will listen to both of them if they need anything and if they need a slap of cold harsh reality I can do that, or I can distract them from their problems. The only thing I can tell them both is that....well one knows that bit and the other can ask me. I'm drunk but still trying to censor.

My wedding is only TWO days away...well todays technically friday so one. Saturday is my big day and I cannot wait! John and I are finally gonna be married and go to disney world! So excited. I feel like it's a big step in my life even though john and I have been living together for a while. However, it's a step I'm willing to take because I know that ...well... it's a path I want to take with him and only him no matter what. Even if metaphorical mountains and rivers get in our way we will climb and make metaphorical rafts, I just have that confidence. Heh, metaphorical rafts. sounds like a band name. I'm gonna write that in my list of rock band names. Next to Startled Goats and Nicotine Zombies.


anyways, that is it for now. Seeya gais!